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Staying Would Be Easy.

 

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We hear it all the time…

Quitting Is For Losers…

And in some circumstances that would be right…

But isn’t staying in your comfort zone also equally loser-ish? (Is that even a word?)

I mean hear me out for a second…

I’ve been doing a LOT…and I mean a LOT of soul searching for the last six months or so…

I’ve taken every single thing in my life…thrown it under a microscope and examined the hell out of it…

I wanted to create a simpler life, one that was filled with meaning and not so much stuff…

A life that I could look back on and be proud…

A life that would inspire others to do the same…

So I started creating lists (Type A, thanks Mom) and putting things into columns…

What was most important to me…

What DID I want to accomplish in my life…

What matched the legacy I wanted to leave behind…

What behaviors fit in with my values…

And then there were the lists of the things that didn’t matter anymore or things that I had made priority in the past that weren’t serving me well…

I had this intense realization that what I was doing for the most part, was no longer the thing that I needed to be doing.

While it had been such a key component in my life, it was time to move on…I needed a “Do Over.”

But then all of this emotion started to flood me…and the words QUITTER flashed before my eyes.

Was I really a quitter? Was I never going to win because I was giving up? Was I just going to be another one of those stories of the girl who quit before the miracle?

But deep down I have known the answer for a while, that’s not the case for me. I’m not quitting on my hopes, my dreams, and my future. I’m simply taking an exit to the same destination just on a new road.

And it scares me out of my ever living mind. Which honestly…I think is the point.

I am stepping into un-charted territory. I am trying something new, something I didn’t even intend to find.

See the EASY thing to do here would be to stay in what I know. To stay on the path I have been on for quite some time. It would be so easy to stick to it. I mean why in the world would I leave…when I have built something so incredible?

I can’t explain it other than, I feel like I have been standing at the edge of the water, staring out wondering what else might be out there for me (Moana, I get you girl!). I just keep feeling pulled in a new direction, and as scary as that sounds…

I have to follow my heart, and find my True North. Even though at times I find myself saying out loud “What Did I Just Do?” and crying for no reason because in all honesty I am scared.

But in the long run…I have to be true to who I am. I want others to remember me for my COURAGE to follow my heart…I want to inspire my kids to go after what they want…no matter how badly it scares them…

You see…I may be a QUITTER…but I am most definitely not a LOSER. And no matter what the outcome might be, I am going to hold my head high because at least I tried…

Because if I go there’s just no telling how far I’ll go.

Bottom Line: Just say yes to new adventures. Start living your life again. Step out of your comfort zone & find the thing that fuels your passion. Stop worrying about what others might think. This is YOUR life and you only have ONE. So make it count!

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Confession: I Have A Gambling Problem

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Hi, my name is Makala Clark, and I have a gambling issue. The last time I gambled was this morning when I let myself lay in bed an extra 10 minutes only for breakfast to not be finished in time & my Kindergartner having to eat breakfast in the car. She wasn’t impressed.

You may not know this, but Mom’s have MAJOR gambling issues. Our lives as Mom’s are a CONSTANT bet between which decision is going to be the better option.

If you have kids, you know EXACTLY what I am talking about.

Do you dare jump in the shower and risk flour being dumped all over the floor?

OR do you go on day FOUR of no shower and PRAY that nobody knocks on the door to see you looking like a homeless troll?

Do I hide the ONE green bean in his dinner and risk it being thrown to the floor?

OR do I just fold and give him his usual PB&J?

Do you go to the bathroom with the door open or shut?

Door shut means you run the risk of your child cutting her hair into a nice mullet and then moving on to her brothers.

While door open means you get to hear your children gag down the hall and ask what smells?

Do you get what I am saying? Mom’s risk their lives and their sanity DAILY for their children. We put our lives on the line here people.

So yes, it is true! I have a gambling problem. I have a mean poker face, I know when to hold em and when to fold em. Every day I roll the dice and pray that my decisions are the right ones.

Someday’s I walk away feeling empty handed and defeated while other days  I feel like I won a million dollars and hit the jack pot. But every day I keep coming back, because believe it or not I am ADDICTED.

Addicted to my family. Addicted to my job as a mother. And addicted to the thrill of Motherhood.

What is a gamble you have had to take recently?

Sidenote: All of the above accounts are real life, legit moments I have encountered in my life. They were not embellished for entertainment purposes, they did in fact happen, and are very much real. Thank you very much!