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Punch Fear In The Face

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Fear…Isn’t it a FUNNY thing?

It takes the most RATIONAL people we know…And turns them COMPLETELY irrational…

Guilty?! Me too!

Try to call Struan at work…can’t get ahold of him…immediately I fear the WORST! Maybe he was in a wreck…what if he fell off something at work…the list goes on and on…

It sounds silly…but it happens more often then I would like to admit…

A few months ago in Jamaica we decided to go Zip Lining…And Y’all I was scared out of my mind…A million SCARY thoughts went through my mind…The climb up to the top…made me SICK…my stomach was in knots…and I was on the verge of tears…

I had NO idea what I was getting myself into…Then they hooked me up and without hesitation sent me flying…

And you know what…It was INCREDIBLE!! I LOVED IT!!!

What if I would have given in to the fear? I NEVER would have gotten to experience the THRILL of the ride!!!

F***!

Fear…the scariest “F” word out there…

It lurks around corners, it waits for you in dark alleys, and it pops up in the most inconvenient of times…

Plain and simple…FEAR is a bully who doesn’t fight fair…

A few months ago my 3 year old fell off the top bunk…face first…it was a pretty serious fall…one that took a long time to recover from…Yet, it didn’t stop him from climbing up the ladder the next day and sleeping in his bed without any hesitation…

WHY?? Why is it that my 3 year old could punch fear in the face…

Yet here I sit paralyzed? Scared to follow what’s on my heart…scared to FAIL! Another pretty serious “F” word…

And I know I’m not alone. Because I hear it all the time from other women around me. Bottom line…we don’t feel like we deserve to dream big and pursue our dreams.

Here’s the cold,hard truth…You are the VICTIM of the rules you live by! {Jen Sincero}

So in order to punch fear right between the eyes…we HAVE to believe we are worthy of the life we want to live…We have to stop limiting ourselves…And then we have to take a step forward…trusting and believing in ourselves.

You’ve got to decide that you want something MORE than you are afraid of it!

{If you haven’t read You Are A BadAss, then I highly recommend it!}

Is there something out there that you have ALWAYS wanted to do…but have been too scared to try??

I’m issuing you a challenge…JUST FREAKING DO IT!!

Let go of FEAR…PUNCH it in the FACE if you have to…and take a LEAP of faith!

XOXO Makala

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Staying Would Be Easy.

 

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We hear it all the time…

Quitting Is For Losers…

And in some circumstances that would be right…

But isn’t staying in your comfort zone also equally loser-ish? (Is that even a word?)

I mean hear me out for a second…

I’ve been doing a LOT…and I mean a LOT of soul searching for the last six months or so…

I’ve taken every single thing in my life…thrown it under a microscope and examined the hell out of it…

I wanted to create a simpler life, one that was filled with meaning and not so much stuff…

A life that I could look back on and be proud…

A life that would inspire others to do the same…

So I started creating lists (Type A, thanks Mom) and putting things into columns…

What was most important to me…

What DID I want to accomplish in my life…

What matched the legacy I wanted to leave behind…

What behaviors fit in with my values…

And then there were the lists of the things that didn’t matter anymore or things that I had made priority in the past that weren’t serving me well…

I had this intense realization that what I was doing for the most part, was no longer the thing that I needed to be doing.

While it had been such a key component in my life, it was time to move on…I needed a “Do Over.”

But then all of this emotion started to flood me…and the words QUITTER flashed before my eyes.

Was I really a quitter? Was I never going to win because I was giving up? Was I just going to be another one of those stories of the girl who quit before the miracle?

But deep down I have known the answer for a while, that’s not the case for me. I’m not quitting on my hopes, my dreams, and my future. I’m simply taking an exit to the same destination just on a new road.

And it scares me out of my ever living mind. Which honestly…I think is the point.

I am stepping into un-charted territory. I am trying something new, something I didn’t even intend to find.

See the EASY thing to do here would be to stay in what I know. To stay on the path I have been on for quite some time. It would be so easy to stick to it. I mean why in the world would I leave…when I have built something so incredible?

I can’t explain it other than, I feel like I have been standing at the edge of the water, staring out wondering what else might be out there for me (Moana, I get you girl!). I just keep feeling pulled in a new direction, and as scary as that sounds…

I have to follow my heart, and find my True North. Even though at times I find myself saying out loud “What Did I Just Do?” and crying for no reason because in all honesty I am scared.

But in the long run…I have to be true to who I am. I want others to remember me for my COURAGE to follow my heart…I want to inspire my kids to go after what they want…no matter how badly it scares them…

You see…I may be a QUITTER…but I am most definitely not a LOSER. And no matter what the outcome might be, I am going to hold my head high because at least I tried…

Because if I go there’s just no telling how far I’ll go.

Bottom Line: Just say yes to new adventures. Start living your life again. Step out of your comfort zone & find the thing that fuels your passion. Stop worrying about what others might think. This is YOUR life and you only have ONE. So make it count!

moana